(Actually written yesterday, and earlier today on my iphone)

I'm at the airport right now. LAX, otherwise known as Satan's Asshole. The energy here is, simply put, negative; I can't help it, my forehead hurts from being contorted into a stressful expression. Why? Because I missed my plane to Arizona. There were no other Delta flights, and I have to switch airlines now. Okay, so water under the bridge, I should shake it off but I can't. Truth be told, I'm on three hours of sleep and I'm stressed. Luckily Ryan is kind enough to wait with me and not speed off while I wait lost and confused in the airport. He's helping me deal with the ticket counter people (who are much more rude than people I'm in line with) and helping me think. I can't think right now.

(Written this morning on the plane)
Flight Back

Wow I was stressed on the way here. Its LAX. LAX is terrible. The energy is awful and inescapable. Its on everyones faces and it feels offensive. Ryan will be there at baggage claim waiting for me. I hope he doesn't have anything to do today so we can hang out together. Maybe go on a bike ride or to the hot tub or something.

Arizona was cool. No big woop. Tuscon is a small town. Spread out, and sparse. People there were slightly introverted it seemed, but to be honest I felt a little alienated. Overall they are sweet people. When the plane landed yesterday, and I saw all of the trailer homes strewn across the bare land, and I thought of the pioneers of the old west. About the early vagabond families that came out from the east in covered wagons on a quest to make a new life. I thought to myself that some of them must have gotten stuck along the way, and never really left their wagons. Then, fast forward a hundred years, and those families are still settling. Except now they have trailers. I think that is the true heart and soul of America. Americans are really explorers, and alot of them are still looking for a place to call their own. We are such a young nation. And naive as well. That is to say, American culture and society, not the American Government; because I believe the government knows exactly what it is doing. What is sad is that our culture will only evolve under Federal jurisdiction. What our dictators see fit for us to learn, we will learn. The same goes for the general populace's opinions in the way its run, and modified by a government controlled media, the food we eat and what's in the food we eat, which is of course eradicated and filtered through government approval. The issues we care about again given to us by the main stream media. Am I ranting? Is this a cliched topic talked about by many in today's youth? Well I'm only pointing out the obvious. Its obvious to me at least. I just see it as unfair for us not to evolve as a society that is a truly free-thinking society. You know, like the kind of society that fueled the European Renaissance. I don't think there is a real foundation for any kind of creative movement to flourish here. Except maybe, possibly, maybe, that because we are so deprived of true inspiration as a society, and because of the utter crap we are exposed to on a daily basis with channels like E! Television and magazines like "Us", infecting our youth with disposable nonsense that maybe, just maybe, we are due for a Renaissance of our own. In which, a truly talented musician will actually "make it" because of his talent and not because of his level of marketability. And all who are talented will finally be revered as important. Thus changing the ideals and inspiring society as a whole. Making way for new inventions which would propel us into a New Age entirely.

Am I dreaming to big? Anyway, it just saddens me that people don't generally care about ideas, people just go to work, and remain unhappy and unfulfilled. We are constantly asking ourselves if we are happy. Why not just be? Why can't we just be, and stop trying to satisfy ourselves? I'm guilty of it, no doubt, but I try to tame that impulse as much as possible.